Tom Munro exclusively for Vanity FairIf you’re an Adele fan, you know how much being a mother to her son Angelo means to her.  But she reveals in the new issue of Vanity Fair that after his birth, she struggled with something common to many women: post-partum depression.

“I had [it] really bad…and it frightened me,” she tells the magazine. “I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life.”

So how did she conquer it?

“One day I said to a friend, ‘I f**in’ hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I f**in’ hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted,” she explains.

She also decided to give herself one baby-free afternoon a week.  “A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it.’”

“I love my son more than anything,” Adele admits. “But…if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the f**k I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that.” 

The Grammy-winner also says she feels badly about not spending enough time with Angelo on tour.

“At times I feel guilty…even though my son is with me all the time, on certain nights I can’t put him to bed,” she tells Vanity Fair. You’re constantly trying to make up for stuff when you’re a mom.”

In addition, Adele says she doesn’t need to marry her partner and baby daddy, Simon Konecki — she tells Vanity Fair that having a child together is the bigger commitment.

As for her music, Adele says, “I’d still like to make records, but I’d be fine if I never heard [the applause] again. I’m on tour simply to see everyone who’s been so supportive. I don’t care about money.”

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